The truth is...

I had mentioned about the quest for truth in the P-problem. Some friends of mine have asked me if I am related to 'Film News' Anandan because I often intersperse my normal conversation with references from films. I always say that there is nothing new to be said, nothing new to be done etc. To put in the famous comedy scene (2:57) புடுங்கறது பூராவுமே தேவையில்லாத ஆணி தான்! Whatever needs to be said has already been said. I am not sure of this 'fancy' for 'remix'es of late because people have always been copying old stories. Romeo + Juliet was an example in Hollywood - Shakespeare could still be used, as is, in 'modern and contemporary' context.

Post-p-problem, when some ask 'how do I feel?' - I dont think they are going to visit me, because they cant bear to see 'others suffer' - that was one refrain that was given in 2004! I can say again that books/films have already talked about my current 'situation'. For me the classic scene is always the one from Pulp Fiction and 'moment of clarity' is very apt as well



And without a job, residence, or legal tender, that's what you're gonna be-- a fuckin' bum!

I was just sitting here drinking my coffee, eating my muffin, playin' the incident in my head, when I had what alcoholics refer to as a "moment of clarity."

What's goin' on?
Looks like we got a vigilante in our midst.
Shoot 'em in the face!

Sounds like a shit job.
Funny, I've been thinkin' the same thing.

Now this is the situation. Normally both of your asses would be dead as fuckin' fried chicken. But you happened to pull this shit while I'm in a transitional period. I don't wanna kill ya, I want to help ya.

There's a passage I got memorized. Ezekiel 25:17. "The path of the righteous man is beset on all sides by the inequities of the selfish and the tyranny of evil men. Blessed is he who, in the name of charity and good will, shepherds the weak through the valley of the darkness. For he is truly his brother's keeper and the finder of lost children. And I will strike down upon thee with great vengeance and furious anger those who attempt to poison and destroy my brothers. And you will know I am the Lord when I lay my vengeance upon you."

I been sayin' that shit for years. And if you ever heard it, it meant your ass. I never really questioned what it meant. I thought it was just a cold-blooded thing to say to a motherfucker 'fore you popped a cap in his ass. But I saw some shit this mornin' made me think twice. Now I'm thinkin', it could mean you're the evil man. And I'm the righteous man. And Mr. .45 here, he's the shepherd protecting my righteous ass in the valley of darkness. Or is could by you're the righteous man and I'm the shepherd and it's the world that's evil and selfish. I'd like that.

But that shit ain't the truth. The truth is you're the weak. And I'm the tyranny of evil men. But I'm tryin'. I'm tryin' real hard to be a shepherd.